Saturday, December 29, 2007

Moving Update

I had a chance to be a part of the Saturday night gathering at Crossroads tonight. As an added bonus, I was able to see some folks that I love and miss. They were kind enough to ask about our house situation- noting that they hadn't seen an update on my blog in a while (hint, hint). So, here's the latest:

- After teaching on Sunday and again on Christmas Eve at Connections, I joined the rest of the family in Nashville at my brother and sister-in-law's home on Christmas morning. It was a short, but sweet celebration.

- As of Thursday, our house in Lexington is currently empty and most of our earthly possessions are in an ABF freighter truck (supposedly) headed to Raleigh.

- After months of searching and weighing our options, we settled on an renting an apartment. We've got a short term (3 month) lease with the ability to go month to month beyond that if we need to. This should give us a lot of flexibility as we search for a home to buy. The apartment is brand new (no one else's dirt) and is in a great location. I'll post our new address later.

- Our scheduled closing on Friday didn't happen. Our buyer's are still wanting to purchase our home, but have hit a delay with their financing. The short version is that they are both self-employed (realtors) and lenders are tightening up their requirements with all the foreclosures on the horizon. We MAY be closing in 2-3 weeks.

- I'll be heading to Raleigh to unload our truck into our apartment on Thursday (1/3). Jen and the kids will come early the next week.

So, that should catch you up on our happenings. I know many of you have continued to pray for us. I think it is working. Please keep it up. =)

Also, we're getting kinda tired of talking about ourselves. Hit the comments button and let us know what's going on in your world.

Saturday, December 15, 2007

Would You...Could You...Ditch The Box??

Lance is one of my new friends in Raleigh. We've seen each other at church each weekend, eaten a handful of meals, and dabbled in the local music scene together. So far, I think a lot of Lance. And then he dropped, the big one on me.

They don't own a TV. Haven't for 12 or 13 years now.

Wow. I was blown away.

The reason for ditching the box? There wasn't much worth watching. They were busy and didn't have time for it anyway. Over a decade later, they don't miss it. They aren't completely out of touch either. Lance reads the news every day online, they watch movies on the laptop, they are even fairly conversant about sports and tv shows. Lance told me that you'd be surprised how pervasive tv is (even as one hummed on nearby in the restaurant we were eating at).

How do people react when they hear about his abstinence? They usually talk about their own watching habits. Two refrains are most common:
1. I don't really watch that much tv.
2. We need it for sports.
He usually just says ok and lets the conversation continue.

Don't get me wrong. Lance isn't an activist about this. He doesn't think tv is evil and isn't trying to convince anyone. He's simply living out his choice. Makes me like him even better.

Every year Lance attends a conference for work and stays in a nice hotel complete with a nice tv. Does he watch it? Yes- for about an hour. Then he thinks- oh yeah, same old stuff- and clicks it off.

Am I giving up my tv? Probably not. Although I could stand to unplug more. By the way, Lance's biggest curiosity about people who watch tv is "How do they find time to get anything done- like reading?". "We don't", I told him with a smile.

How about you? Ever thought about getting rid of your tv? How long do you think you could go without it?

Monday, December 10, 2007

Getting...A Little....Closer...

Every day from now until Christmas is excruciating for the kids in our lives. They wait...and wait...and wait for the 25th day of the year's final month to arrive. It's enough to drive a youngster crazy.

I can relate. For the last few months we've been waiting for the day when we finalize the sale of our existing home in KY. Today we took another huge step.

We signed a contract with another buyer. Unlike our last buyer, this one doesn't have to sell their existing home. On top of that, they want to close quickly- like before the 2007 calendars become obsolete.

Am I excited? Almost. Why not? It's my friend, Jason's fault. 15 months ago, Jason relocated from FL to KY. All that time and 7 contracts later, he still owns his house down south. At one point he told me that an hour rarely goes by when he doesn't think about this. (Feel free to add Jason and his wife Maria to your personal prayer list if you have one.)

So, I'm thrilled to have another contract. I'll be giddy if the home inspection scheduled for Friday reveals nothing significant. I'll levitate my hiney to the car if we close as planned on 12/28.

Although this journey has been challenging at times, I'm convinced that it has been bearable only because of the prayers you and others offer for us. We are grateful. Please keep it up- at least until everything is official.

Sunday, December 2, 2007


Remember this ride at the local fairs as a kid? The supposed attraction? That momentary feeling of weightlessness (and accompanying bladder sensation) that happens as you sway from one side to the other. Sounds like my life lately.

As we've spent the last 8 weeks in the land of "in-between" I've seen Jen's and my spirits ride the Viking Ship. One day we're fine with the travel, unsold house and the sense of disconnection (esp. for Jen)- the next it feels we're a little queasy (and have to suddenly pee). After a couple of months of limbo and having everyone in the clan take their turn at the vomiting virus last week- I found myself literally on the downswing.

Apparently, God knew I needed something positive (and pronto), because we got two great pieces of news in the span of 12 hours. First, we got a call from some family members saying that they thought we really needed to be in Raleigh by New Year's. They believed this so much, that they offered to pay our rent there so that we could continue covering our mortgage here. Although my pride hates needing help, I marveled at our family's capacity to love and savored the instant feeling of peace. We hit the Raleigh Craigslist and started our rental hunt.

The second piece of positive news came @ 9:30 am on Sunday morning when the phone rang. A gentleman called to ask if he and his wife could come and see our home at 11am. My answer? Uuuuummmmm- no. We need to clean up a bit. How about later? Eventually we settled on 4:45. After cleaning every nook and cranny, (which is probably good after all the sickness we've had anyway), and exiling the wife and kids- I showed the house to a nice couple that we'll call Bob and Dena - whom I hope are God's angels sent to end my suffering and purchase my home.

I don't want to jinx it, but it was a great showing. Bob & Dean are both Realtors and are looking to buy a home for themselves. They don't have to sell their current home to buy ours and would like to be in before Christmas. (Could this be it?) They know a bargain when they see it and think our home is in fantastic shape. I agree on both counts. Best parts of the showing? They stayed for 45 minutes, went through the place 3x, and started talking about where their furniture would go in each room.

Wow. Talk about a swing. 24 hours ago I was planning my life as a gypsy. Tonight, I'm thinking that I may be in Raleigh before year's end.

Crazy. I feel weightless. And I have to pee.

Thursday, November 29, 2007

New (to me) Music

I love music. I've got lots of friends who feel the same way. Probably not a coincidence. A few months back I received an itunes gift card and recently got around to spending it. Here's what I picked up- in chronological order:

Daughtry - Daughtry
Yes- I know he was on American Idol (but didn't win- does that make it better?). Yes- I know his ballad "Home" has been overplayed in all the wrong places (Idol used it as their theme song last year). Even with those hurdles, I chose to grab this album. Why? I felt the need for something a little rockier, there's a quality to his voice that I enjoy, AND I found myself singing the hook to "It's Not Over" even after it ended.

Overall, I'm pleased. The project has some variance in tone and tempo- which I didn't expect. If you've tapped on your steering wheel to any of his songs on the radio, you'll probably enjoy this. If you want to mock me for this one, go ahead. (You don't need my permission anyway.)

Which brings us to...Mute Math - Mute Math
I know quite a few folks who have been raving about this band for the last 6 months. Some have seen them live and it raised their opinion of the band. Which doesn't always happen, right? So I caved. Better late than never.

The first release off of this project ("Typical") is probably the most infectious of the bunch (and has an awesome VIDEO). To me, the rest of the songs aren't quite as catchy, but they are growing on me. Layers and effects are everywhere. Mute Math pulls of a nouveau 80's thing with a sense of freshness. After several listens through, I might describe this band as an updated version of the Police (see "Chaos" & "Noticed"). And I dig that.

Ray LaMontagne - Til The Sun Turns Black

I've almost bought this album about 5 times and finally did. (Thanks for the recommendation Patch.) If you have a place in your ipod for passionate, acoustic music- go grab this one right now. You can come back to this post later.

I became a big Ray LaMontagne fan minutes after the download finished. I play this project when I want to relax or when I'm working. Just good to have it on- like the voice of an old friend. Give Ray a listen HERE. And his music seems to get fuller, richer and better with headphones on. My favorite track right now is "Empty" and contains some of the better lyrics I've heard lately:

"I looked my demons in the eyes, bore my chest, said 'Do your best. Destroy me.'
You see I've been to hell and back so many times, I must admit, you kinda bore me.
There's a lot of ways to kill a man. There's a lot of ways to die.
Yes, and some already dead they walk beside me."
Need another reason to consider this one? Ray's bio says he decided to become a singer @ 4am one morning after listening to a Steven Stills record through the night. You too, right?

So far, this list has been all over the place with style. Here's where it narrows a bit:

Sugarland - Enjoy the Ride
I've never been ashamed to admit that I like some country music. Guess lately I'm drawn to the southern ladies who (despite their looks) can really sing. Sugarland is technically a duo- but Jennifer Nettles does most of the vocal work. If you need a taste of the heartland and a bit of twang, give this one a listen. "Want To" is a standout to me.

Carrie Underwood - Carnival Ride
American Idol isn't the only thing she won, and there's a reason. Apparently, the folks who hand out Grammy, AMA & CMA awards all think she's more than just a pretty face. After enjoying what I heard from her on the radio last year, and a couple of listens to the first song off of this disc ("So Small")- I was willing to deplete the surplus in my itunes acct. If you haven't heard "So Small" yet, and you go to a Contemporary church that does "Featured Music"- you will. Trust me.

Tuesday, November 27, 2007

Fred's Teaching

Many of you have been kind enough to encourage me as a teacher. As I was leaving Crossroads, several of you asked if my new CHURCH COMMUNITY would be offering teaching podcasts. Someday, yes. For now, no.

However, if you are interested in what I'm teaching these days, you can drop by CONNECTIONS' TEACHING BLOG each week for a textual recap. I know it isn't the same thing as hearing my voice, but you'll just have to make due. (We call this sarcasm in NC.)

Right now, I'm wrapping up a modified version of the "Counterintuitive" series I wrote for Xroads and will be launching our new Xmas series in 2 weeks. Feel free to take a peek.

Monday, November 19, 2007

Carolina Baptism

When many of my KY friends heard I was moving to the Raleigh area, they approached me with concern for my soul. With the intensity of an intervention, they implored me not to root for the Dukie's (read Dookie's if you are a UK fan) or the fellas who wear the powder blue uni's. I made no promises, but said that I'd try to keep my 'Cat loyalties alive. Well, this past weekend I attended my first Raleigh sporting event: The Carolina Hurricanes vs. The Florida Panthers NHL game.

Had a great time. I was invited to sit in a box that one of the guy's in our worship band had rented so the rest of the band and their families could spend some time together.

If you've never seen a game from a luxury box- I highly recommend it. Why?: the constant provision of food, drinks (and dessert), premium parking passes, and the multiple seating options just off the top of my head.

So, breathe easy my UK brethren. My integrity is intact. (At least until someone offers me free tix to the Dean Dome or a chance to hang with the Cameron Crazies.)

And Russ- thanks again for letting me crash the party!

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

Tricks of the Parenting Trade...

Those of you who know us well, know that our family eats out a bit. Quite a bit might be more accurate.

Lately, Colston (7 mos.) seems to have outgrown his infant carrier. Not only is he technically too long for it, but he won't sit in it for the length of any meal.

So, last night we entered a new phase in Colston's life- the use of restaurant high chairs. What made this potentially awkward was that we had no food to feed him at the time, and that he throws every toy you hand him on the floor after exactly 5.3 seconds.

But Colston's time in the high chair last night went off without a hitch, thanks to a simple dining implement.

The soup spoon. He mouthed that thing for a good 20 minutes and the rest of the family supped in relative peace.

Rookie parents might not have gone for the soup spoon. But 3+ years on the parenting gig has taught us a thing or two.

Like soup spoons will pacify 7 month olds. And steak knives don't work nearly as well.

Monday, November 12, 2007

Complete The Phrase...

This weekend I'm teaching on the topic "Someday Is Now" and would love to get a little input from you.

How would you finish the phrase:

"Someday I'm gonna _________________ ."

Saturday, November 10, 2007

Bed, Breakfast & Dinosaurs (aka Anniversary Celebration)

On Thursday am, the grandparents (& my favorite in-laws) showed up to man Fort Turner as Jen and I headed north for a 32 hour reprieve. We did a lot in a short time, but never felt rushed. Here's the blow-by-blow.

We started with a trip to the GAP Outlet in Hebron, KY. This is one of our favorite places to shop since it is a true outlet. In about an hour and a half we spent $84 and came home with: 4 sweaters, 2 pairs of pants, 4 t-shirts, 2 shirts, 6 pairs of socks, 2 pairs of shoes and 1 pair of lounge pants. Can't beat it.

From there we headed to our accommodations at Willis Graves Bed and Breakfast in Burlington, KY (about 10 mins away). Although I like B&B's, it always feels like we're taking a chance by staying at one. The pics on the web never tell the whole story. This time, we chose wisely. The Willis Graves was everything we could hope for: intimate, private, romantic, comfortable, charming, etc.

We stayed in the William Rouse Suite, which is in a log cabin that has been relocated to the property. The rustic charm combined with the new bathroom (steam shower & jacuzzi tub with waterfall spigot) was perfect. That's right, the water to fill the tub actually comes from the ceiling.

After checking in, we headed to Mi Salon & Spa for a couple's massage. This was my first massage by someone other than Jen. Very relaxing. We'll definitely do this again.

Later we grabbed dinner at the Grandview Tavern & Grille about 15 mins away. This independent restaurant is family owned and operated. The best part of the dinner was eating sans little ones at a slow and leisurely pace and being able to focus on each other. The baked brie and juicy, marinated flank steak weren't bad either. The next morning we snuck into breakfast at the B & B at the last possible moment. After some fresh fruit (I'd forgotten how much I like blackberries!) Jen had french toast stuffed with creme brulee and I had an omelet.

After checking out, we drove another 10 mins to the Creation Museum. When I first heard about the museum I was skeptical, but after a couple of positive reviews from folks whose opinions I value, I thought it might be worth seeing. It definitely was. The entire museum is well done, embraces science (and dinosaurs) and does a great job painting a picture of the history of Creation from a biblical perspective. The planetarium show (which explains our current understandings of outer space) and some compelling evidence for a young earth were personal highlights. Our visit lasted about 3 hours and we didn't drag our feet. We found ourselves glad that we didn't have our kids (3 yrs & 7mos) with us. It would have been over their heads.

After a meal in the museum cafe (tasty & cheap!) we headed for home. Once in Lexington, we stopped off to visit Jason and Kristy Eaton and their newest addition: GreenLee Noel. GreenLee arrived a week ago, but we hadn't seen her since our family has been passing a cold around. Baby girl was beautiful, and mom and dad looked tired but happy.

A half an hour later, we were home again. Although the time away was relaxing, it felt good to hug the kids again.

10 years down. 40 more to go.

Wednesday, November 7, 2007

3,650 Days of Wedded Bliss

Tomorrow Jen and I will celebrate our 10th wedding anniversary. How does a decade fly by so quickly?

After ten years of life together:
- She knows me better than I know myself.
- She is even more beautiful. Is that possible?
- We've had some adventures.
- We are parents to two of the sweetest kids I know. (Jen's genes get credit.)
- I have even less hair, and maybe a bit more self-awareness and patience.
- I love her more than myself. Just wish my actions showed it more often.

Hitting this milestone makes me grateful not only for Jen, but for all of you who have supported us with your love and friendship.

We're scooting out of town to a B&B in Burlington, KY to celebrate. I'll give you a (family appropriate) report after we get back.

Monday, November 5, 2007

Fall is here and ACHOO (ugh)...

My whole family has been fighting sore throats, sniffles and sneezes this week. Seems like the fall illnesses are starting to make the rounds.

Anyone in your tribe been sick recently?

If so, what did you deal with? How long did it last?

Do you have any go to cures or things that make you feel better?

Any preventative measures you take to dodge the bugs?

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Cancelled Again = Foilage & Flexibility

There I sat with the rest of the lemmings- waiting to board flight 4542 to Raleigh in our something less than comfortable airport chairs.

One passenger standing nearby answered his cell phone. His buddy who was supposed to be on the same flight was running late. In his mad dash to the ticket counter, he discovered that our flight had been cancelled.

A quick scan of the nearby departures screen failed to confirm this. A glance at the counter near our (and every other) gate showed a complete absence of any airline personnel.

Laptops whirred and cell phones snapped open. Dozens of passengers sought answers and found that indeed our flight had been cancelled. (By the way, no announcement of this fact was ever made in the boarding area.)

The airline agent I spoke to (on my iphone!) suggested that I return to the ticket counter. Not that I minded the walk, but there was something about walking back by the TSA personnel after I'd just done the security shuffle (you take your laptop out, you take your shoes off..) that fried my bacon.

After arriving at the ticket counter and waiting my turn behind a large group of friends with an even larger group of bags to check, I was told that there was good news.

I'd been rebooked.

For 5pm the next day.

I'm not sure if the groan was audible or not, but I felt it in my bones.

You see- this was my short trip. Out Friday am, back Sunday pm. And although I didn't want to leave my family, I took solace in the fact that I'd be flying.

Or maybe not.

Suddenly, the 6:30am commute to the airport seemed so unnecessary.

Time to get to the solution side of things.

I rallied and asked the ticketing agent to please retrieve my checked bag with as much kindness and charm as I could muster. Five minutes later I was at the Budget counter, laying claim to a gold Chevy SSR- their, more masculine version of a PT Cruiser. 5 minutes after that, I was racing the predicted arrival time in the right hand corner of my GPS.

Yes, it was disappointing.

Yes, I missed a lunch date with Connections leaders that I was really looking forward to.

Yes, it rained most of the way there- and hardest after it got dark.

Yes, I stopped at almost every rest area in West Virginy to pee.

As an aside to my KY friends- the fine folks of WVA make us look cultured! At least those who engage in conversations in the rest area men's rooms do anyway.

On the upside, I saw some beautiful stretches of fall leaves.

And I listened to another David Baldacci book on cd. Bless you Cracker Barrel.

And I'm sure God used the moment to remind me that I'm not in control and that the world doesn't end when my plans fall through.

And why was my flight cancelled?

Mechanical problemns made the aircraft unfit to fly.

Thanks again for the drive Lord.

Tuesday, October 23, 2007

Please Keep Praying

This weekend was my first of who knows how many commutes to Raleigh.

Although the trip went well, and the family did fine in my absence (with the in-laws help)- Jen and I began to realize how important it is to get our home in Lexington sold and start putting down roots in Raleigh.

Right now our residence is under contract to a great couple who needs to sell their home to buy ours. I hadn't heard from them in a couple of weeks and assumed they were losing steam.

On my way back from Raleigh, they called to say that they still really want to buy our house. They told us that they have 2 different folks interested in their place and may get an offer by the end of the week.

If you have a minute, please pray and ask God to bring this quickly to a close.

And...if you know someone who is looking for a good deal on a home in Chilesburg...have them call me. (263-8099)

Monday, October 22, 2007

My Muse

Lately I've been giving Colston his last feeding of the day and putting him to bed.

This routine includes singing a couple of classic songs (Jesus Loves Me & Twinkle Twinkle Little Star).

The other night, my boy inspired me to add a new verse to the latter.

Sing the lyrics below to get the full effect:

"Twinkle, twinkle litte one

Time to sleep, your day is done

Hope that you had lots of fun

With mommy, daddy & Addyson

Twinkle, twinkle little one

Rest until you see the sun."

I love being a dad.

Tuesday, October 16, 2007

It's Alive...My iphone Is ALIVE!!!

As a parting gift, Xroads gave me Apple's new golden fruit- the iphone. I activated it a few days ago.

Practically speaking, this is the perfect gift. I'll be commuting from Lexington to Raleigh for a couple of months and working (long term?) without a designated office space. The iphone gives me access to email and web wherever I get phone service.

There's also a bit of irony in this gift since I haven't carried a cell phone for pretty much the entire time I worked at Crossroads. I had an office with a phone, and lived just around the corner- where I also had a phone.

Now I'm back in the game...or carrying the ball and chain...however you choose to look at it.

So far, the iphone is by far the easiest cell phone I've ever used- even though it is the most feature-packed.

My greatest dilemma? Where to carry it? I refuse to do the belt clip/case thing. (Vanity, Vanity) I don't like to carry things in my front pocket. Is the back pocket a good choice?

So, looks like it will sit on the table or in my bag.

Or I'll be wearing A LOT of cargo pants.

Sunday, October 14, 2007

A Little R & R

The family (Jen,me, Addy, Colston & the in-laws) got away for a few days to the Lake Lure/Chimney Rock region of North Carolina.

Not sure how it works for anyone else, but a log cabin, river in the back yard, tall trees, granite mountains, scenic vistas, rocking chairs and front porch swings, paddleboats, nightly desserts and walks in the woods refresh and recalibrate my soul and psyche.

Back home now for a few days before my first commute to Raleigh.

More on that later.

Friday, October 5, 2007

BBQ, Balloons & Fat Lips

The other night we headed to our favorite BBQ joint for some grub.

Addyson came to the counter with me to pay our bill and got the obligatory free balloon. (Remember when something so simple would make your day?)

Helium filled orb in hand, Addy ran to show off her new treasure to her mom and brother.

Three strides in, her toe caught my heel, she lost her balance and slammed face first into the tile floor.

Blood, tears, bruised lip and gum, a slightly loosened tooth, overinflated lip and one pediatric dentist visit ensued.

The good news is that everything should be fine. Worst case is that she may have some discoloration of one tooth. In fact, her lip is almost back to normal size.

The bad news is that we've realized that we can't protect our kids from everything we wish we could. This was Addy's first semi-serious injury.

It won't be her last.

Friday, September 14, 2007

Yes, It Is True...

This past weekend the announcement was made that my family and I will be leaving the Crossroads staff. I've accepted an offer to join Connections Church in Raleigh, NC.

Connections is a 3 year old church of about 100 people that is pursuing its own unique identity in the Kingdom of God. Connections is a multi-ethnic (USAmerican, Bahamian & Hatian) , multi-generational (birth-60's) community that has a strong desire to honor God by loving and serving its neighbors in the Raleigh metro area. I will serve as the lead pastor, with a focus on leadership, vision casting and teaching. My last official weekend as a part of the Crossroads’ staff will be October 6th & 7th.

Although the opportunity has come quickly, we have a lot of peace about it and believe that God has opened this door for us.

Of course, moving is a bit bittersweet. Heading to Raleigh means that we have to leave Crossroads and all of you that we have come to love so much here. Even though I'm finishing up here in early October, we won't move until we sell our home. I'll end up commuting back and forth to Raleigh, while Jen and the kids stay here. All that to say that our opportunities to connect don't expire in 3 or 4 weeks.

As for a longer term plan, I'll find reasons to be back in Lexington. (Hello- Men's Weekend!) I intend to keep this as my personal blog, so you can all find and communicate with me here. Feel free to subscribe if you are interested. I'm also hooked on FACEBOOK and would gladly make you my friend if you agree not to stalk me. Also, feel free to update my email address to: so you can reach me long term.

Thanks for taking the time to stop in and for allowing Jen and me into your lives. We're better for it. Hope you can say the same...

Tuesday, September 4, 2007

Again And Again And Again

Here's a post that I wrote that also found it's way onto our church's blogs:

Ever come across a song that you just have to hear again? And again? And again?

Right now I'm listening to a song called "This Too Shall Be Made Right" for the 12th time in a row.

The song is off of Derek Webb's current project "The Ringing Bell".

Here are the lyrics:

people love you the most for the things you hate
and hate you for loving the things that you cannot keep straight
people judge you on a curve
and tell you you’re getting what you deserve
this too shall be made right

children cannot learn when children cannot eat
stack them like lumber when children cannot sleep
children dream of wishing wells
whose waters quench all the fires of Hell
this too shall be made right

the earth and the sky and the sea are all holding their breath
wars and abuses have nature groaning with death
we say we’re just trying to stay alive
but it looks so much more like a way to die
this too shall be made right

there’s a time for peace and there is a time for war
a time to forgive and a time to settle the score
a time for babies to lose their lives
a time for hunger and genocide
this too shall be made right

I don’t know the suffering of people outside my front door
I join the oppressors of those who i choose to ignore
I’m trading comfort for human life
and that’s not just murder it’s suicide
this too shall be made right

Wow! I'm usually drawn to prophetic voices like this, but even more so today. Maybe because I've spent the last week thinking about God's Holiness.

How will a Holy God respond to all the darkness that goes on in our world (and inside of us)?

What does it say about us if we can't mourn the same things that God does? Or do what is within our power to right injustice?

Although the lyrics are powerful, the combination of the mournful vocals and ringing acoustic guitar drives home the pain in the song to me.

Hear a 30 sec. sample or go big and drop 99 cents on the full deal at itunes:

If it doesn't speak to you at all, I'll refund your dollar.